Something has come over me recently...
An undenyable feeling to do everything i wanted to ever do in life. In the past couple of weeks I've been able to get my finances in order, reconnect with family, start my prepping for graduate school applications and bought a new laptop (which is TRES sexy btw lol)
There are so many goals that I want to achieve, so many things that I want to do and I don't ever want to say I have any regrets about not going after them.
My go getter attitude surfaced after a string of incidents, both good and bad, that opened my eyes to how SHORT life really is. Within one week I celebrated my grandmothers 82nd birthday and learned of my friend's 20 yr old sister, Tini, being murdered. Both women were unable to attain things that they wanted in life.
Tini never got the chance to see 21 and do all the things that a legal adult can do. she wont get totally shitfaced and vomit on her 21st bday. she'll never meet the man of her dreams, get married and start a family. She'll never get the chance to see her nieces and nephews grow up.
My grandmother on the other hand was blessed to live a long life...but is filled with regret because of the things she was unable to do. Her life was consumed with being a wife and mother. Although she has a beautiful family to show for it complete with great grandchildren; she has nothing that she can say she did on her own. She never finished hs or went to college, never worked a job or even went shopping by herself. she never had any true independence from her role as a family woman.
Those two examples is what made me really decide that no goal is too big or too small (I know that sounds corny but thats the best way I can put it LOL) for me to tackle. Of course there are a few challenges that I'm afraid to face along the way; but what is the worst that can happen if i try? Nothing. A door will close on you or not open for you but If you don't try you never will find the door that was left unlocked for you to open.
