Your very pretty...are you mixed?

The above statement or "where are you from?" is something that i get a lot due to my 'good hair'(fucking hate that term btw) and personality (i guess i act Caribbean??).

Either way, I feel like more and more frequently I find others, as well as myself sometimes, mistaking beautiful components and aspects of black women for mixed race women. Sometimes black women are mixed but a lot of times they aren't. My question is, Why must beautiful black women have to be something other than 'black' to be beautiful?

There are plenty of good looking black women such as Gabrielle union, sanaa lathan, beyonce, Janet Jackson, ciara, Angela bassest...the list is endless; that are not racially mixed and yet still very striking looking.

In no way am i dissing women who are mixed or come from the islands (another thing i get a lot), cause in the end most black ppl are mixed to a point. Its just that Black women need to start taking pride in just being black and not trying to reach for other ethnic backgrounds that are just faintly there in their bloodline.

PS. For those of you who ARE black and mixed, take pride in being black and stop just appreciating the sexual parts that you got. For example: if ur a mixed black guy, don't be all hype about being black only when talking about ur dick or if ur a girl rep black when talking about ur ass...that's fucking disrespectful. thank you.

Plastic surgery

'Had a body, A body that you can't pay fo'/
That mean she had some D's on her but they wasn't fake though'

oddly enough that is the line that i think of when it comes to my body. lol

I've been working hard recently to do total reconstructive surgery on my body. And no i don't mean saving up thousands to pay for plastic surgery. I mean doing it the old fashion way: eating right and working out.

I've started strength training in the morning then running when i get home followed by a nice half hr session of yoga. Yea..i know, yoga isn't my style but I felt like i needed to get my flexibility back and relax all at the same time and yoga seems to be the best option. its also good to incorporate something fresh so i don't get bored.

anyway i also straightened up my diet...A LOT. I been frequently shopping at Whole Food (i can live in there) which i love and I've cut out sugar and anything white that's not diary. I'm still taking my vitamins too. I've never been much of a calorie counter but I'm starting to be more mindful of how many i eat in one sitting.

I'll be posting some pics soon (i got a new digital camera...HEY!!) so y'all can see the progress :)

PEACE!

ps. I would REALLY love to learn how to kickbox and surf. For some odd reason they've been playing the shit outta Blue Crush and i want to learn how to surf and every yr go on a surf trip lol. Anyone wanna learn with me? ;)

Jon and kate plus everyone

Yesterday me and Marce, along with millions across America, watched the season five premier of Jon and Kate plus 8.

It was sad to see how their relationship has deteriorated so much over the past five seasons. The show started off with Jon and Kate (separately) talking about the scandals that are their lives.

As we all know by now, Jon has been seen partying it up with college girls and Kate has been snuggling up with her bodyguard. And my question in all of this is 'what about the kids?'. Originally this show was started as a documentary about the sextuplets birth and first year of life which somehow now spun into a total money making machine. Now the Gosselings have paparazzi following their every move and their faces are splattered on the pages of a tabloid mags.

I felt bad as Jon talked about how he didn't sign up for 'this', and i knew exactly what he meant. He just wanted to do a documentary about his family and that was it. Sure he messed up by partying with college girls, but we can't really get on a man who is married to the devil. lol

Time after time we see Jon being his cool calm and collected self, only to have an anal, over analyzing and organizing wife like Kate constantly bitch and demean him on national TV. I mean honestly i don't even see what he saw in her to begin with. I'm not condoning whatever he did do, but I'm saying she couldn't have been totally surprised by the fall of her marriage. Of course she said she was perfect while complaining that she was alone and Jon wasn't there but did she admit to her actions and what she's done? No.

So what can Jon and Kate do to preserve their marriage? stop filming this stupid show. Yea its interesting to see how a couple deals with managing 8 children but is it really worth being followed by paparazzi? is it worth seeing your family plastered in tabloid papers? is it REALLY worth having your kids followed by a camera crew?!?!

You would think that it would be an easy decision, but i guess only time will tell.

Mr. Revolving Door

Do you have one of those ppl in your life that comes in and out of your realm of existence...constantly.

there is no steady relationship with the person, they just come and go as they please; usually creating some sort of dramatic effect on ur mood, good or bad. Only to retreat as quickly as they came, leaving you all sorts of fucked up emotionally or mentally because they are too much to deal with.

Yea i have one of those. Its annoying to me. I'm the type of person that likes to know why someone is in my life. I like for all ppl in my life to have some sort of purpose. and Mr. revolving door has no purpose in my life but to piss me off. Not saying his personality or anything about him per say pisses me off. its the fact that i just don't know what do about him. How to explain our...'relationship' for lack of a better term. We're cool...but i guess that's it. There is no constant contact, due to me trying to ignore him and ween him out of my life..but there is no way to cut this fool out of my life its so annoying.

I mean can you truly cut someone out of your life that has many of the same connections you have or have the same friends you have? I must admit I've tried to cut someone toxic out of my life but there ass is still there because so much was shared btw me and this other person and truth be told they aren't ready to let go of me.

With that; I think Mr. revolving door will never truly allow me to 'remove' him out of my life. He will continue to be a guest star in my life until he's ready to let go..because I'm sure as hell ready to let go of you.

ps. I wonder if he thinks I'm Ms. revolving door in his life?